I went to the post office to ship a tuxedo to a friend for her wedding and grabbed the size box I would need and got into line. After waiting for 15 minutes it was my turn so I told the lady I would need to ship this package. She said I had to tape it first. I said there wasn’t any tape on the shipping counter. She said the post office doesn’t provide tape. I had to buy some (“but I didn’t have to pay first”). So I had to get out of line, grab some 5$ tape and tape my box shut… and get back into line for another 20 minutes. I was a tad frustrated. So I asked if I could leave the tape I just purchased so that if someone else came to ship something and didn’t realize they had to have tape they wouldn’t have to buy some there and she said “sure, that is nice of you.” And I said “well I would have appreciated a little help so its the least I can do.” And I left… super annoyed.
I used to ship things a lot… like 1-3 times a month… and I have never had to buy tape. Crazy.
Then I went and bought myself a milkshake. Now I have to get ready for work… when instead I would rather spend this cold and rainy day reading (and napping) in my bed with my dog. Le sigh. Being an adult really stinks.
So, I have been singing for a really long time. Since I was 6… I am not terrible. I am no Christina Aguilera… but I am no William Hung either. I can hold my own. I recorded a song for the first time in a really long time. I had lost my passion for it… but now suddenly I miss it. I am craving it. I miss being on stage and performing. So I sang. It is a rough cover, sang over the original but I did it. And I shared it. Which is huge… but I have spent SO LONG being embarrassed or shy when it comes to singing and I really don’t even know why… so I am dunzo with that. I am going to get back into the theatrical world. It is where I belong! I may be rusty… but I can catch up quick.
My dear friend started her amazing journey today!! I am so happy for her!! And super excited because we are going to be pen pals (legit stamps and letters) while she is gone!!!!
All my love and well wishes my darling Shae!!!
You know what I miss? Instant messaging. Yes, I know we live in a world of nonstop texting and snapchatting… but there was something fun about MSN messenger or AIM. Maybe I am dating myself here… but that was how I used to stay connected. I am guilty of being too attached to my phone, just like everyone, but I miss signing in to whatever messaging server and chatting with friends. Sometimes I want to disconnect my phone. Just turn it off and put it in a drawer and see if anyone really notices. I grew up without a cell phone. Without facebook and instagram and twitter. Yet, here I am now… a total slave to social media. Now on one level, I know that no one cares what I am feeling or having for lunch.. yet that doesn’t stop me from tweeting “500% done with today” or posting a picture of my sandwich on insta. No one cares. I have never been a big phone talker, and I am still not to this day. If you call me chances are I won’t answer OR I will answer and be off the call within 10 minutes. But by God if you text me, I reply almost instantly. Wow do my priorities suck. I miss writing letters to friends… you know, passing notes? That was fun. Finding new ways to fold the paper and coming up with secret codes. I want to untangle myself from the Internet and social media. I want to be an active person. I want to have actual face to face conversations. I don’t want to text or like someone’s post on facebook. Don’t get me wrong, social media does a lot of good… it keeps us connected easily with friends and family who are far away. I can log in to facebook and see how my family in England is doing. I can jump on twitter and see how wedding planning is going for my friend in Wisconsin. I can browse insta to see how my bestie is doing in film school. I can read another friends newest blog entry about her adventure of moving to the East Coast for a Summer internship. And all of those are amazing reasons to stay connected. But I could also call said people. I could do a lot of things. The moral of the story is I want to unplug sometimes… but I am always afraid I will miss something. Which is super lame considering I am an adult. But whatever. We live in a world where it is easier to like or comment a status than to call someone. I want to go back to basics. I want to have a pen pan I write actual letters and use actual stamps. I want to go to lunch and not once grab my phone. I want to fall asleep without the glow of my phone in my face. I want to enjoy a day outside playing with my dog without having to stop and take a million pictures that no one other than I want to see. I am going to take time away from my iPhone. Sure, it is cool having the world at my fingertips… but sometimes the journey is more fun. Trial and error. I am going to put down my Kindle and go to a bookstore. Turn off my phone and go outside. Stop posting 47 pictures that people like out of habit. I want to connect with people and with life for real and not via a screen. I know it won’t be easy but it is possible… I did it for 16 years. We shall see how this goes. Wish me luck.
Everything about this is amazing. I am so using these.
I attended the University of North Dakota (aka The Fighting Sioux). Amazing school with passionate people. Well the NCAA went after my school and (short story version) said we either pay a small fortune or we lose our logo… we lost our logo. We are now Fighting UND. People still wear their Sioux head gear with pride, myself included. Everyone in this town from the very young to the very old has at least one piece of Sioux gear. I am not a Grand Forks native and I have 5 hoodies, 5 tee shirts, 2 sweatpants, and lots of wall art myself. One of my dearest friends is getting a Sioux head tattooed on her. We love the Sioux head. It is a sign of pride and strength and it has united countless people as we cheer on UND’s various sports teams. Well now there are some people (as far as I know it is less than 10) trying to get the Sioux head banned period meaning that faculty and staff and students cannot wear it on campus or to any university events. That is such crap. There are a small group of people on the campus who say the use of the Sioux head is offensive and disrespectful and that it needs to go away forever.
This logo is beautiful. He is strong and proud. A warrior. He has determination in his eyes and strength in his jaw. We wear this proudly. That logo has united more people than it has offended. It brings students (and members of the community) together… so how can something that has done so much good be so terrible? No one wears their Sioux gear out of disrespect. I don’t have a Sioux head blanket hanging in my living room because I want to offend and oppress anyone. The fact that that is what this issue has become makes me sick. There is a small group on UND’s campus trying to turn this into a dog fight. They want to tar and feather any and everyone who wears the Sioux head… yet they claim they are against oppression and discrimination. Sounds like a whole bunch of hypocritical horse hockey to me. When you manipulate a situation so that is works solely in your favor you aren’t fighting injustice. You are not being a selfless warrior. You are creating a problem. You are spitting in the faces of people. You are being absolutely ridiculous.
I find this image more insulting and worthy of people’s anger. Both images were found simply by going to Google and typing in “Fighting Sioux” and clicking images. So what these witch hunters are saying, is that wearing the Sioux head and proudly calling yourself a Sioux is more disrespectful and wrong than defacing the Sioux head? They would rather we run around like anarchists and black them out? Rip them off anyone wearing them? That we hiss and boo and anyone wearing the logo? We should suddenly ostracize this amazing logo and those who choose to wear it? Refuse to engage with those wearing it? Wow. Maybe these people need to take a trip down history’s memory lane and see just how oppression works. Maybe I am being a tad extreme… but remember when PETA threw paint and flour on little old ladies wearing their fur coats? Is that what this group wants? My take is this: you want me to stop wearing my Sioux head gear. You want me to stop representing something I find beautiful. You want me to turn my back on one of the things that made me feel accepted here. You want UND and the townies to abandon something we love. You can want in one hand…
This debate will most likely never end. And there really is no way to appease both sides. The university removed the logo, you would think that would be enough but now we must target the fact that people refuse to let their mascot go. You can take away our mascot, but you can never take away our pride. Please (I beg you) tell me how that is racist and demeaning and disrespectful and oppressive. PLEASE. We force people to take “sensitivity training” (which is what this group wants… that all incoming students have to take sensitivity training) for standing up for themselves and what they believe simply because someone else gets their feelings hurt… tell me how that makes sense? We are supposed to be the land of the free and home of the brave. We are supposed to have rights that allow us to do things (like wearing a shirt or sweatshirt) without being attacked. I think these people who have made completely erasing the Sioux head their mission and selfish and cruel. Instead of choosing to see the unity (because the entire town rallied together when we first heard we might be losing our logo) they choose to see their own agendas. Sometimes learning to see past the end of our own nose is difficult. I think that whole sensitivity training goes both ways.
All I know is this: I was never really into school spirit before I came to UND. Sure, I would cheer for the home team at games… but I never really invested myself. Coming to UND completely changed that. Being a UND student was like joining an amazing family… and what united us? We were wearing Sioux shirts. That was all it took for people to take an interest and talk to me. Seeing the passion the entire town of Grand Forks has for The Fighting Sioux is really amazing. It gives you chills. Young and old come together to wear their gear proudly and cheer our teams to victory. How is this wrong? Anything that unites people and closes gaps is a good thing in my eyes (people coming together to cheer on college students IS a good thing. Don’t come at me saying things like “people think war closes gaps”. Do not take my words out of context. I am talking about UND and the Sioux logo uniting the community). And the only way you will get my Sioux gear is to remove it via force.
Sometimes I tend to over-think things. I completely understand that. But sometimes I think things are accurate and it just hurts. I had something happen today and I am extremely bothered by it. I can’t help but dwelling on it. And I am really upset. I know that I am probably being stupid… but part of me just can’t help but feel jilted. Part of me wants to confront the situation head on because that is very who I am and what I believe in. But at the same time I am partly afraid of what will be said. This whole situation sucks. And Friday can’t get here soon enough. UGH.
So I just finished watching Graham Norton with guests Hugh Jackman, Michael Fassbender and James McAvoy. I am not only even more in love with these guys but I have such a deep appreciation for them it is almost sick… in case you haven’t seen the episode and want to click here http://youtu.be/0_9hFpL9Xac… it was such a good interview and the guys were really good sports. I am in love.
So I have been kind of neglectful to this blog… my bad! We just finished the busiest season at work so I have been a tad busy and super tired.
What is new?
I got a new tattoo on my left foot! It says “Hakuna Matata”! I adore it. It is written in the Disney font. It took all of 10 minutes for Steph (amazing artist at Dead Rockstar in Fargo) to do and I am SO pleased.
I finally saw Captain America: The Winter Soldier. SO GOOD. Chris Evans is gorgeous. As is Scarlett Johansson. Unlike 99% of the population I am not obsessed with Sebastian Stan. He is a great actor, and a good looking fella… but he just doesn’t ring my bell. Sorry bout it.
I bout a Betta fish (his name is Cap ;short for Captain America) because he is red, white and blue… and a friend jokingly said he is patriotic like the Cap… so the name stuck. He is cute. I love fish! They are SO relaxing to watch.
I started watching “Bates Motel”… obsessed. It is SO GOOD. I am currently on episode five of season two! Halfway caught up. This will be another blog entry all together (note to self).
I am currently reading the Game of Thrones books. I am in book one (prom season) but I am enjoying them. I love the show so the books will be epic. Again, blog topic all its own.
I think I am going to start reviewing things (books, movies, food, shows, etc.) on this blog to see if that helps me update more often. This isn’t my main blogging platform, but this will be my main writing blog so. Whatevs, yo.
Until next time party people.